I had always felt like I had put my life on hold when I decided to stay at home to school my littles and live on one income. Shortly after the arrival my last child was born in my mid-forties, my parents moved in with us and a lot more of my plans were pushed to my “someday” list. When my father passed away and my mother became increasingly dependent on me, the “someday” category grew. Someday life would be easier and with fewer obligations. Someday I’d get my life back. Someday . . .
“The great thing, if one can, is to stop regarding all the unpleasant things as interruptions of one’s ‘own’ or ‘real’ life. The truth is of course that what one calls the interruptions are precisely one’s real life–the life God is sending one day by day. What one calls one’s ‘real life’ is a phantom of one’s own imagination”
– CS Lewis
Reading those words by Mr. Lewis was an “a-ha” moment for me. These things that I thought have put my life on hold are not interruptions, they are my life. The life God has given me. The life I am meant to live and love.
Wow. Talk about game-changer. I was looking beyond the present and selfishly wishing for something more. How rude of me to look my gift giver in the face and say, “Meh, what else you got?”
Thankfully God loves me enough to overlook my lack of graciousness and gave me a nudge in the right direction. I may not have everything I want, but I have everything I need to live a joyful life. Living my “real” life may not always be easy or convenient, but I can’t let the lack of anything hold me back from living (and loving) the gift I have been given.
Pamela Walker’s work has appeared in Chicken Soup for the Soul books. She loves and believes in “A Beautiful Me®” and all it seeks to do. Pamela is a mother, a wife and an observer of life. She and her husband share their 100 year old farmhouse with their three homeschooled littles, her octogenarian mother, and a menagerie of chickens, cats and dogs. Take a peek inside her “never a dull moment” life at thespottedhen.blogspot.com